January 2010
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My mind is elsewhere right now.
Anxious. Scared. Worried. Hopeful. Doubtful. Upset. Frustrated. Thankful.
Always the "Best Man"
Here comes another iPhone post as I try to fail asleep. But fail to do so. Tonight’s topic comes to mind as my roommate sits with his girlfriend underneath me on the couch. It’s a little creepy that I am writing this while they are there. But they know I’m not sleeping for a while. So I might as well write this.
But yes. Always the “best man” never the groom it seems. My two attempts at a life of...
Unrequited.
I think that people practice the torture of unrequited love because they don’t want to feel alone.
No matter how successful, popular, or loved you are, you can still feel loneliness. Being around people does not equate to being happy or whole. As I lay on my bed trying to fall asleep so I can wake up for 8 am class. I can’t help but think about how miserable I am right now.
I...
What Grinds Me Gears 5
People that don’t pick up their feet.
Someone was walking behind me at an increasing speed. So I decided to start recording her on my iPhone, although I couldn’t upload the audio for you all to listen to, trust me when I say it’s really annoying.
It’s not difficult to pick up your feet, especially when you’re wearing shoes that sound like windbreakers scratching up...
Picture of the Day
I should start using my camera more. My ateh and I both should. :D. I’m hoping that by doing this, it will make me take more pictures. Since it’s raining, I’ll just start with old work.
My First Painted Work. Dated o8.o3.o9. Unedited.
"Never hope more than you work."
For most of my life, I’ve always hoped, planned, or expected that things would just work out for me. I never wanted to put in the effort. I still don’t. But this is where reality once again kicks in.
2009 was a year of disappointment. failures. if you will.
I learned the hard way that I need to work to get what I want.
But I also learned that I shouldn’t work too hard for what...
Hiatus.
Be back this weekend.
Who knows?
Maybe today will be it. I’m going to do things I’ve been scared to do so who knows? Today might be the day. I’m still learning how to conquer fear and do what I should: learn to overcome obstacles. So who knows? Today might be the last day to try or nothing will ever happen.
Wish me luck. :) Bye.
What Grinds Me Gears 4
People that raise their hands in class. Get called on … then they say …
“I just wanted to ask …”
“I have a question …”
“Can I ask a question? ..”
OR
Ask a question where the professor is about to answer in his lecture anyway.
Jeez. Calm down people!
-_-‘
What Grinds My Gears #3
Chalkboards.
I dislike professors who teach on blackboards. Uhhhhhh.
So Here It Is.
The Rundown.
At The Beginning: Goals. Dreams.
Friends. Friendships. Friendly Relationships.
In Between The Lines: New interest. New heart. New Love.
Heartbreak. indifferent. Pain.
Self Doubt. Struggle. Rediscovery. Fail.
At The End: Not Self Forgiving. No Real Personal Growth. Skills Improved. Some Relationships Strong. Some Relationships Weak. Weaker. Nothing.
Just another year it seems....